Carnival
When I tried to cry, the tears would not come
Was it because I was faking or not caring enough?
When I tried to shout, the sound was feeble
Was it because I did not put enough effort into it?
When I stepped out, I was cold and sad
Was it because I spent all day sheltering myself?
When I saw the news of people dying on TV, I turned it off
Was it because I could not handle the truth?
Who am I?
Do I have a consciousness?
Where is it?
How could I know?
Am I a human or just artificial intelligence?
How could I tell?
Could I see myself or just others?
Are these futile questions with no answers?
When I turn and look behind me
Do I see the past or just a colorless present?
When I look forward to a bleak future
Should I get depressed or attempt to live in the present?
As I hear the time tick by
As I see the earth rotate without meaning
As I see people check out and check in
I wonder if the carnival is worth the price, I paid for it